All the while i thought that we would be living discreetly together.. We are aware of the reality that what we are doing is against the norms of society. thus we live in such a discreet manner. i felt love, i felt happiness like never before. It feels so good to remember our moments of love, our moments of intimacy and affection. How I wish i could spend the rest of my life doing it with you. Making love, caressing, and hugging you.
We allowed it to happen. We wanted it to happen. We do it out of our own accord. I must admit that I did it out of my love for you. It surprises me to know that for you it was just nothing. It was merely a game, a game played over with temptation, lust, and hedonism. Pleasure that was simply your idea about it. As for me, I did it out of love. I did it because I care for you and I want to spend the rest of my life loving you.
Sometimes I think that even rainbows have their ends. And what I fear most just happened at once. I felt really ashamed of my self when I heard about the things that happened lately. This stirred up our discrete relationship. Our secrets of intimacy and affections. This threatened my mere presence on you. And this might lead us to separation, the thing i fear most. I must admit that when that person left you, I felt happy that somehow in this battle I won. I fought for you and now I have you all by myself. For my personal consumption, no other person would take you away from me.
Not until secrets have been revealed that my happiness was turned into anguish, embarrassment, and fear. I anguish for the fact that with this things happening, I might lose you. I am embarrassed because of the discoveries they found revealing the private life we had together. I fear for the outcome of this what would be the result of our silence, and what would they reveal again to destroy our relationship.
One thing I must confess, after having these events I came to a point of leaving you. I reached to a certain level of certainty that when I leave you and the part of a chapter of my life, things would go well. Yet when I heard you asking me if even I would leave you... those certainties turned out to be wrong. I shouldn't have let that cowardice corrupt my mind. In the silence of my heart I sincerely apologize for entertaining those thoughts. This I promise you... In this time that you need me most you will have me and I won't leave you...
We allowed it to happen. We wanted it to happen. We do it out of our own accord. I must admit that I did it out of my love for you. It surprises me to know that for you it was just nothing. It was merely a game, a game played over with temptation, lust, and hedonism. Pleasure that was simply your idea about it. As for me, I did it out of love. I did it because I care for you and I want to spend the rest of my life loving you.
Sometimes I think that even rainbows have their ends. And what I fear most just happened at once. I felt really ashamed of my self when I heard about the things that happened lately. This stirred up our discrete relationship. Our secrets of intimacy and affections. This threatened my mere presence on you. And this might lead us to separation, the thing i fear most. I must admit that when that person left you, I felt happy that somehow in this battle I won. I fought for you and now I have you all by myself. For my personal consumption, no other person would take you away from me.
Not until secrets have been revealed that my happiness was turned into anguish, embarrassment, and fear. I anguish for the fact that with this things happening, I might lose you. I am embarrassed because of the discoveries they found revealing the private life we had together. I fear for the outcome of this what would be the result of our silence, and what would they reveal again to destroy our relationship.
One thing I must confess, after having these events I came to a point of leaving you. I reached to a certain level of certainty that when I leave you and the part of a chapter of my life, things would go well. Yet when I heard you asking me if even I would leave you... those certainties turned out to be wrong. I shouldn't have let that cowardice corrupt my mind. In the silence of my heart I sincerely apologize for entertaining those thoughts. This I promise you... In this time that you need me most you will have me and I won't leave you...
