Friday, February 22, 2013

Church Should Not Reject People...


I went into the Redemptorist formation for 5 years, fortunate for me that at least I received a strong foundation when it comes to faith and the Catholic religion per se. But after living 5 years outside formation, somehow I already made a clear distinction between the life of a religious and an ‘ordinary’ Catholic. And in this paper I will give my reaction according to the perspectives of a lay man.
The Church should not reject “people who have sex outside marriage, use contraception, don’t attend Sunday Mass”, and should I include the LGBTs. This statement of Bishop John Buckley touches most lay man’s concerns, particularly on moral issues. Personally, speaking in behalf of the lay, we tend to disregard most of the teachings of the Church and live a life that is somehow directed by the Church’s teachings but we tend to choose what we follow and not just simply obey without rationalizing. In this generation of Catholics, seldom would you hear lay obeying guidelines without even asking why. Most of the time it ends up with protest against the Church, a clear example was the case of Carlos Celdran raising a placard with the word “Damaso” during a Mass as a sign of protest against the involvement of the Church on RH Bill proceedings. It was an indication that lay are getting more inquisitive.
It is in these situations that the Church has created a gap. Nowadays, lay Catholics have gone afraid in going to church for Mass because they always feel guilty and unworthy. This guilt and unworthiness becomes part of our system. When asked to attend Mass, they would say it’s only for the religious and the clean. This should not be the case because, as sinners we are then called to conversion and the Church can help us out. The Church is indeed our refuge and not someone who merely gives emphasis on our mistakes. Bishop Buckley was right in saying that religion is about hope and strength and not about condemnation or rejection. This development serves as a challenge to our Church leaders, who have attained a certain degree of distance from the faithful, to reach out and explain that the Church is a refuge.
And it is true that these laws and regulations are the ‘ideals’ that we should follow. Ideals that should shape our mentality and shall then establish our Christian way of life. I believe that having them as our examples to live by will benefit us in one way or another but I also stand with the thought that not living on these ideals doesn’t make me less of a Christian, in this case less of a Catholic. What is essential is what my conscience dictates me. If I feel that I am happy and is fulfilling what Christ requires me to do then I am a Christian.
It should be noted also that there is a great responsibility for the Church to be constantly on guard when there is threat to our Values. It is essential that the Church should remind the faithful to live a life pleasing to God but in a manner that does not cultivate a culture of rejection and fear. The Church, I believe, has gone too much preoccupied by setting up guidelines and laws but forget to think of what is essential; and that is to love one another as God has loved us. I always stick to my standpoint that religion is just a vessel for me to face God but then again in the end I’ll be facing my Creator alone.

This is my reflection on my Theology Class.

Friday, September 9, 2011

Pagaantay

A succeding poem of the Trilogy of Love

Kailan kaya darating ang panahon na aking inaantay?
Nais ko sanang ito'y dumating ng matiwasay.
Sa pagdating nito sana ang puso ko ay handa,
sa kung ano mang dulot na aking ikabibigla.

Nakatingin ang isip sa lalim ng himpapawid,
Nakabaon ang pangarap sa siksik na panganib.
Takot ang puso sa hatid ng panahon,
subalit sabik na malaman kung saan tayo pagka laon.

Huwag akong mangako sa iyo ng walang hanggan,
dahil alam mo na di ako masusuklian.
Di ako pwede magmahal ng lubusan,
pagkat ako'y di nais, sarili mo'y di mo pa nalalaman.

Pag isipan at suriin mo sana ng mabuti,
ang iyong isip at puso para ating ma wari.
Sa puso mo, alam ko, ako ang nilalaman
pero sana naman, kahit sa akin, ito'y iyong mapanindigan.

Nahihirapan ang aking puso at damdamin,
habang nagpapatuloy tayo'y, isip ko'y dapat na itong tapusin.
Bulong ng isipan dapat ka nang lisanin,
Panahon lamang ang may alam, at sa ati'y nakatingin.

Pinakaaantay na panahon ay baka biglang dumating,
handa ba ako sa hatid nitong kaligayahan o hiling
Ligaya na ako'y ibigin, tanggapin at mahalin,
o ihiling na tapusin ang kahibangan ng mga damdamin.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Changes

If you don't hear anything from me then you might be part of the people whom i don't want to communicate with.. i am making changes in my life. Changes that will drastically change the way I view my self as well as others would do for me.. I think I should do this. i believe I must. A lot of people had already felt the pain I brought. A couple of relationships went on the rocks.. And a lot would try to insist that they can help even if they cannot...

They can't help me, I mean us. They just don't know what I've been through just to reach this certain level of enlightenment, of acceptance and of love... The certainty of being enlightened by the reality that was shown.. the enlightenment that there is indeed no harm in being true to your self.

Accepting how these changes would affect me endures pain. it hurts me to know that when I reveal that dark side of me, no one would dare to accept me. But I just remained firm in my understanding that no one would accept me unless I start accepting this phenomenon. Changes entails acceptance and with that others must also accept that I hurt them and I caused to break relationships... Now what else can you do... You always try to reach out to me. Can't you read the thought between the lines.

Loving... It doesn't simply end there. I must embrace this acceptance by showing to others how much I value my self or simply to say -how much I love my self. Then they would start loving me... The thing about this is that I still have this great desire to be loved. Indeed love is the best feeling I have.. and in the same manner the most painful. but still I endured the pain. I managed to continue loving even if he simply doesn't care.

So much for that. I retire.

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