What has been going on with me recently? I am still bombarded with the chains of my job and the chains of the managements but with the faithfulness and companionship of my co-workers. For quite a time I was thinking of asking for a position away from this city. I spend my entire life living in the city, 18 in Davao and 4 in Cebu... I want something new. It reminds me of the soundtrack of a movie, Something New In My Life. I want that! I deserve that!
Yearning for a new chapter in my life is not a different thing anymore. Decisions were made as I went through different chapters in my life. And those decisions were a risk. Taking that risk means difficulty, struggles, challenges, and most of all, what Kierkegaard said, leap of faith. It takes to have a leap of faith, to leap away from the comforts and into the fire keeping within the deepest part of my soul the faith, the faith that I can do it, the faith that I can move, and I can have that yearning for something new.
I want to spend a life out of this current life. It's not that I am running away from this situations I am in to, be it positive or negative. I just simply want to be away. In a place where nobody knows me, my name, my identity. So I can live anew. As what I read years ago, if you want to know me forget my name. There is a need to empty the cup to allow the tea to flow in. And I want to do that! To empty myself and to live anew.
maybe I just become melancholic for I spent a sleepless dawn doing nothing and listening to music from the past that made me write these things? One thing I dread, everything I write my thoughts, they just flew away and left my mind. Sometimes when I want things to be out of my mind, I just write it and it's all gone.
When can I leave this place, I don't wanna die. I want to live, to live a life living not earning for a living not earning to die.
I can' live without my laptop, my smart phone, my car... what else..? comfort. If everything goes well, I can have my new car, then I'll leave this place and live a new life. Bringing with me the comfort of my gadgets and my little home, my car.
Is this blog worth reading? This isn't for you, this is just for me...
Yearning for a new chapter in my life is not a different thing anymore. Decisions were made as I went through different chapters in my life. And those decisions were a risk. Taking that risk means difficulty, struggles, challenges, and most of all, what Kierkegaard said, leap of faith. It takes to have a leap of faith, to leap away from the comforts and into the fire keeping within the deepest part of my soul the faith, the faith that I can do it, the faith that I can move, and I can have that yearning for something new.
I want to spend a life out of this current life. It's not that I am running away from this situations I am in to, be it positive or negative. I just simply want to be away. In a place where nobody knows me, my name, my identity. So I can live anew. As what I read years ago, if you want to know me forget my name. There is a need to empty the cup to allow the tea to flow in. And I want to do that! To empty myself and to live anew.
maybe I just become melancholic for I spent a sleepless dawn doing nothing and listening to music from the past that made me write these things? One thing I dread, everything I write my thoughts, they just flew away and left my mind. Sometimes when I want things to be out of my mind, I just write it and it's all gone.
When can I leave this place, I don't wanna die. I want to live, to live a life living not earning for a living not earning to die.
I can' live without my laptop, my smart phone, my car... what else..? comfort. If everything goes well, I can have my new car, then I'll leave this place and live a new life. Bringing with me the comfort of my gadgets and my little home, my car.
Is this blog worth reading? This isn't for you, this is just for me...
