If you don't hear anything from me then you might be part of the people whom i don't want to communicate with.. i am making changes in my life. Changes that will drastically change the way I view my self as well as others would do for me.. I think I should do this. i believe I must. A lot of people had already felt the pain I brought. A couple of relationships went on the rocks.. And a lot would try to insist that they can help even if they cannot...
They can't help me, I mean us. They just don't know what I've been through just to reach this certain level of enlightenment, of acceptance and of love... The certainty of being enlightened by the reality that was shown.. the enlightenment that there is indeed no harm in being true to your self.
Accepting how these changes would affect me endures pain. it hurts me to know that when I reveal that dark side of me, no one would dare to accept me. But I just remained firm in my understanding that no one would accept me unless I start accepting this phenomenon. Changes entails acceptance and with that others must also accept that I hurt them and I caused to break relationships... Now what else can you do... You always try to reach out to me. Can't you read the thought between the lines.
Loving... It doesn't simply end there. I must embrace this acceptance by showing to others how much I value my self or simply to say -how much I love my self. Then they would start loving me... The thing about this is that I still have this great desire to be loved. Indeed love is the best feeling I have.. and in the same manner the most painful. but still I endured the pain. I managed to continue loving even if he simply doesn't care.
So much for that. I retire.
They can't help me, I mean us. They just don't know what I've been through just to reach this certain level of enlightenment, of acceptance and of love... The certainty of being enlightened by the reality that was shown.. the enlightenment that there is indeed no harm in being true to your self.
Accepting how these changes would affect me endures pain. it hurts me to know that when I reveal that dark side of me, no one would dare to accept me. But I just remained firm in my understanding that no one would accept me unless I start accepting this phenomenon. Changes entails acceptance and with that others must also accept that I hurt them and I caused to break relationships... Now what else can you do... You always try to reach out to me. Can't you read the thought between the lines.
Loving... It doesn't simply end there. I must embrace this acceptance by showing to others how much I value my self or simply to say -how much I love my self. Then they would start loving me... The thing about this is that I still have this great desire to be loved. Indeed love is the best feeling I have.. and in the same manner the most painful. but still I endured the pain. I managed to continue loving even if he simply doesn't care.
So much for that. I retire.
